the feeling comes and goes.. and if i'm not wrong, it goes most of the time.. what will happen when the feeling is gone forever?

another feeling that should appear more often, and in fact be felt 24/7 is not here.. i begin to wonder scary questions.. what if what if..

there's nth i cant blog now i guess.. but it'll probably be understood only by me. don't come to ask me questions.. please. thank you.

should be worried..the thing is happening again.. but i am sounding happy when i should be worried. i am worried. just using the tense laughter to mask my worry.

i cannot be comforted. things seem so wrong